aug 1: ween - 12 golden country greats
aug 1: husker du - candy apple gray
aug 2: brainiac - smack bunny baby
aug 2: husker du - warehouse
aug 2: guided by voices - bee thousand
aug 2: pregnant - after dinner mints
aug 3-4: wilco - summerteeth
aug 4: prarie princess - jewish american prarie princess
aug 6: owl city - maybe im dreaming
aug 6: beat happening - black cand
aug 6: beach boys - pet sounds
aug 6: john coltrane - a love supreme
aug 6-7: halsey - if i cant have love I want power
aug 7: lampreys - masquerade
aug 8: beatles - revolver
aug 8: xtc - apple venus vol. 1
aug 8: harry pussy - ride a dove
aug 9: steve Hauschildt - tragedy and geometry
aug 9: lampreys - masquerade
aug 9: ag cook - 7g (discs 2-3)
aug 10: ag cook - 7g (disc 4)
aug 11: ag cook 8g (disc 5-7)
aug 13: phoebe bridgers - lost weekend
aug 13: mr bungle - s/t
aug 14: ween - golden wastes [EP]
aug 14: $quib - erring
aug 4: simpsons S2E11, 17
aug 5: last week tonight
aug 12: the vampire diaries S2E22-23
aug 13: the vampire diaries S3E1-3
aug 15: frasier S9E2
so many flash games at work...
aug 9: tony hawks pro skater 3+4 remastered
aug 3: dear hank and john 461
aug 5: mbmbam 825
aug 15: dear hank and john 462
aug 6: mlb | tor v chc | innings 1-4
aug 9: mlb | hou v sd | innings 2, 7-9
aug 10: llws at work
aug 14: cfl | ott v wpg | oh my god ottawa has the largest losing streak in cfl history
aug 15: pwbl | sf v ny
aug 5: Do The Right Thing (1989)
I can see the spots in the tint of my glasses at the front desk, what even is a list of intentions? I have goals that span over years and I still feel like I am chiseling into them without making enough daily progress. What have I done today, with my eight hour shift at work, where I have probably done about fifty minutes of actual work? I did a crossword, I scrolled instagram, I watched hamilton lose at football. There's a recurring idea in millenial reductive productivity self help slop language that all I need to do is make a to do list, and i have made MANY to do lists, but I still find myself scrolling on whatever the nearest thing is. I mean, for goodness sakes, I am addicted to iMessage! I am addicted to attention and I am willing to throw attention away! I paused writing this to spend ten minutes playing learn to fly 2 (great game, better than the first one so far).
Sometimes it feels as though the month goal is simply to focus, focus on anything at all, the passing of the rain, the ambient in my ears. focus for forty minutes on making ambient, or doing a crossword every day on a piece of paper with no regard for what my girlfriend or friends are texting me. ok one goal is to read leaves of grass then, finish it. that's a given, because that book is about the love in the air. Might as well finish the odyssey as well. I have an adult ADHD book sitting on my digital self collecting dust (CLASSIC!) that I want to make a dent in, but that is less about reading and mroe about improving my relationship to reaction and attention seeking and self deprication and such. and hey, our old friend focus! I want to find a good "second brain" organizational tool, really anything, because notion is fine but i avoid it and then my only half decent organization is rateyourmusic lists. I think I can finish the ambient album this month, I might make an anw album too because the concepts are awesome. I need to listen to more noise and ambient anyways. I could do the crosswords and stretch. ooh! the clippers! and minecraft! and make a wall calendar for my room and move out and get a job... wow... os much to do....